Hello there, person who always reads my posts but doesn’t like, comment, or share. There are quite a few of you, in fact, so let’s all join around the table for this post, okay? Here we go…
“People never change” is something I have heard a lot, and I’m sure you have, too.
It always upsets me when people say that, and when social media goes on a crusade “cancelling” someone who did wrong years and years ago (although, to be fair, it depends on the severity of the wrongdoings). I truly would not be surprised, that should I ever become well-known, someone will find out the person I used to be and will whip out the pitchforks and torches and try to cancel me just like they do to others.
But, I am a prime example that people do change.
Around the time when I was in high school, I was hardcore anti-vax, deep into conspiracy theories, and scoffed at people following what the government said, and I was overall angry and argumentative, having no qualms with spouting angry stuff online.
Well, thank the good Lord above, I stopped being an immature idiot and realized I was not, in fact, smarter than scientists and doctors, and that the government wasn’t out to get the world.
To be fair, I don’t believe one hundred percent of everything. I still question some things, but now it’s a healthy amount. When I think about the conspiracy theories and the government boogeyman, the way I see it now is that if they are hiding something, what would I be able to do about it?
I do believe that one person can indeed make a difference in this world, but the government has many means at their disposal to keep things hidden if they so choose, and I’d be kidding myself if I thought my internet researches of conspiracy theories would do anything to make them change their tune.
And boy oh boy is it ever exhausting to constantly be looking into things, trying to find or always assuming there’s a hidden agenda.
It’s… weird… to have been that type of person and to have gotten mocked by family members for it, and now that I’ve finally grown out of that (thank goodness), it’s those same family members who are anti-mask, anti-science, tout essential oils and salt lamps, and cry that the shutdowns to stem the tide of the virus gO AgaiNsT OuR rIGhts aND frEEdoMs.
I pretty much have no doubt that had this virus happened a decade ago, I would’ve been anti-mask too. And I’m honestly just so glad that I grew out of it, because wow. Looking at it from the other side, it is not only cringey as heck, but also rage-inducing to think of all those people being willfully ignorant and selfish.
The view from the other side is such a strange place to be after all those years. But I’m glad I’m here and that I’m no longer that angry person.
Changing certainly isn’t easy, though. Remember when I said I was argumentative? Well, that feeling is still there more than I’d like, and it scrapes at me to respond whenever I see posts that frustrate me. It’s nearly a daily struggle to bite my tongue (or rather, my fingers). But I’m trying every day to become a better person, and I’m proud of how far I’ve come so far.
So, next time you think people can’t change, think of people like me who work at it every day to become a better person.